Streeeecchhh

Warning:  Personal...but, this is my journal of sorts...

I'm sure you all can guess what that sound is, right?  Yeah, that's my kindness muscle.  For the most part I'm a pretty good person...well, I thought I was until someone called me names.  

They hurt really, really bad and I still think about them.  It happened three months ago and every day since then I have worked on myself to prove that person wrong.  I am NOT selfish, insensitive or self-centered.  It's all that runs through my mind these days.  

Amazing how one person's words can have such a deep affect.  In everything I do, I contemplate my motives and it doesn't matter..."you're selfish and self-centered" keeps ringing through my mind.  Torrrtuurrous.  Uhg.  Feels like I've been hit in the head with a gong and there is a constant ringing in my noggin. 

Tonight I'm going over to a woman's house, who I met through my photography business, to give her some spaghetti.  She injured her back and hasn't been able to move.  She has two children and usually works a full time job.  Stressful.

You would think that the thought of giving to someone in need would brighten my mental storm, but it's not.  I can't do enough good to erase those words.  These past few months I have stepped outside my "comfort zone" more than ever.  It's fun, and scary, worth it, but those words don't stop.

I sort of feel like crying as I type this because...wow, words DO hurt.  Silly, silly and foolish was the person who said, "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me".  Some things just don't heal...ever.

So, if you have a cross word with someone, measure them carefully before you spill it.  You don't know how deep those words will plunge or what affect they will have...I'm strong and I will get through it, but for now, it hurts and it's really, really hard.  Sometimes, I wish I could go back and change that day in my life...maybe.  Maybe not, because it's what gave me the nudge I needed to give of myself more.

So, maybe I should thank this person instead.  I will never say cruel harsh words to another person, especially my children.  One can only imagine what it would do to an innocent mind.  It's ok to tell someone how you feel, but think first...

Thank you.

Family Ties That Blind

**Fair warning, opinionated post**

Yes, blind.  It's not an uncommon occurrence and it happens more often than it should.  It seems that when there is a blood tie there is this special pass given out for making horrible mistakes or decisions and there is no worry of having to be held accountable.  Can I say the "H" word, please?  Pleeeease? 

Ok, I won't say it, I'll just spell it out.  I H.A.T.E that.  (there are certain things that are ok to hate, I promise, and this is one of them)

My family will tell you, my sisters, mom and brother, that I don't give out those "passes" in my family, not for them, not for my own children.  What an unfortunate example of enabling.  How is the individual ever to learn proper behavior, respect, responsibility if they're always given a way out of their messes.  Denial is not your friend.  It's your enemy and the sneakiest of rascals.  It will creep in and before you know it will have wound its slimy little tentacles around your eyes -- blinding you.  It's a horrible, horrible thing to be an accomplice to someone's stupidity and stand proudly by their side.  No one is capable of making the right decision all the time, but you could make BETTER ones.

Please, stop allowing your blood ties to blind.  It just makes you a sucker.  And please, if you're in a situation and people are trying to tell you you're giving out that "pass" -- LISTEN!!  It's ok to be wrong.  Just stop.  That person is probably killing you and you don't even know it.  They for sure don't respect you because you let what they do slide by, time and time again.  They know they have a shmuck in you.  *sung to the "You have a Friend in Me" tune*

Gracious.  I haven't written in like a month and this is what I decide to post.  It's been burning in my mind for quite some time.  Ahh, I love getting things like that off my chest.

My OTHER blog

Sorry, it's sort of taking over my life!  I have a total of three blogs and this is the one that suffers.  As soon as I can, I'm going to do a blog overhaul and make a combo blog so you only have to go to ONE of my three and then you can coast around there to read about my thoughts or my hobbies, or my kids!

This is a post, however, to let you all know about a giveaway that I'm doing on my hobby blog.

It's for a sock monkey.  Crazy busy as I am, I want to sew yet another sock monkey and then give it away!  So, please, click the link and let me know if you'd be interested in winning it.  Tell your friends because the more people who let me know of their interest the better.  

Don't be shy :))

Click HERE and join the fun!